Our adoption story: Full steam ahead

After we had our "failed" adoption, Angie (our social worker) called. She, and Laura, called several times to check on us and see how we were doing. She also gave us the option to hold our profile from being shown for a little while, to process what had happened, or to continue being shown. Fortunately because everything, with the match and then it not working out, happened so fast they didn't have time to put a hold on our profile and it was still being sent out. Rich  and I had talked about it and we decided to keep on keepin' on. We didn't want to put any more time between us and our child.

When I spoke with Angie I asked her if there was anything we needed to change in our profile or APQ. I asked her this every time I spoke with her. She said no, that they were getting positive feedback about us from birth mothers but that we weren't being shown as often as we could be because of the new law NM passed. It was so discouraging, Rich and I seriously started believing that we would not be matched with a birth mom until we moved out of New Mexico. That move was still at least 8 months away.

The holidays came and went. We had a great time with friends and family during the holidays but the fact that this was now the second holiday season we thought we would share with a child of our own, and the fact that we weren't, weighed heavily on my heart. It was tough to think that though we had already waited so long, we would continue to wait for an unforeseen amount of time. Simply put, it sucked!

January was time to update our home study. Again. This would be the 4th time we had done our home study, I was getting tired of doing it and asking friends and family to once again send in reference letters for us. Rich and I had tossed around the idea of not updating it and just going inactive until we were transferred. We both agreed that with June being the earliest we could move, 6 months was a long time to be inactive. So we decided to move forward with the update and contacted our home study agency.

By January 30th our home study and all our background clearances were  complete and being forwarded to our agency so their files could be updated. With that done, we could celebrate Rich's birthday and sit back and wait for "the call" to come in, though we both doubted we would get said call until we moved. Summer time was beginning to look like it was forever away and I was feeling that we couldn't move fast enough.